I lost my mom December 5, 2018 and to be 100% honest, I have really struggled with grief, especially since the beginning of March. I know she is with our Father and Lord Jesus in Heaven and she is no longer in pain but I sure do miss her. We are told in the Word of God “But I do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning those who have fallen asleep, lest you sorrow as others who have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who sleep in Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 4:13-14. This Scripture does not tell us NOT to grieve but not to grieve as one with no hope (if we & our loved one that passed on was a born-again believer in Christ). I know I will see my mom again but right now, I miss her greatly. There are nights that I lay awake remembering her last days here on earth, wondering did I do everything I could to make her last days comfortable? Did she know how much I loved her when she passed? Believe me when I say, I’m so thankful she is no longer suffering! For that, I am eternally grateful!!
I genuinely love birthdays. They are seriously my favorite holiday. I typically celebrate my birthday for a good month leading up to my special day, but not this year. My birthday is this coming up Saturday, May 4th and I have not started celebrating yet. As I’ve been praying and pondering this, the only thing I can come up with is; it’s because I’m grieving. Grief has a lot do with it! Grief will make one feel empty, lonely, and pained. My body is responding to the grief with extra pain, I’m more fatigued than normal. Grief has a lot do with it! Proverbs 15:13 “A merry heart makes a cheerful countenance, But by sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken.” Yep, that pretty much describes me right now. I’m going to IL this year for my birthday to spend some time with my youngest son. I know that’s going to be a huge help. I’ll get to spend time with friends that I have not seen since 2011 & 2012. I’m excited about that! I believe me going to IL will help me shift out of this space that I find myself in. At least that’s my hope.
Not only am I grieving the loss of my mom, I’m grieving dreams that have not come to pass. I’m grieving because of struggles my families are facing with health, financial and relationships. Grief is a real issue that needs to be addressed. Just because some of us are believers does not mean we do not grieve. It’s time to quit putting on a face and pretending everything is OK when it’s not OK. Let’s talk about our grief, let’s recognize it. No, we don’t want to stay in that place, we want to come out but the only way to come out is by being honest about it. It’s OK to say, “I’m hurting. I miss so & so. Or I miss what could have been.” It’s only in being honest with our grief that we can be healed. Will I always miss my mom? Absolutely! Will I always experience the depth of this pain? I don’t believe so. Why? Because my hope is in Christ! I know I will be reunited with her one day. Until then, I will admit when I’m hurting. I will help others when they are hurting. We are all in this life together. What say you?
What’s Grief Got To Do With It? Blessings & hugs, Lori Skipper